Scott Hartnell (in white)
Reasons I love you - Leonardo DiCaprio
he has no idea
I think “dildo” is a perfectly acceptable insult. Like, I’d call you a dick but you’re not real enough.
i still think its 2012
Harry falling out the bus at the hotel and security had to catch him. The boy needs a helmet damn
She’s beauty and she’s grace, she’s Miss United States
i met god with a bag of frosted cheerios in my hand
and i think this is how most people remember their
first encounters with religion, young impatience in
church pews as their parent’s knees bend and stretch,
nibbling on cashews and scribbling on colouring books
because god was boring and sitting still was
i loved the masses with the candles. i loved
feeling the warmth under my fingertips, i
loved the masses when people got baptized
and everyone had these huge smiles on their faces.
i lost my god when i was eleven. i don’t know
how it happened, i just did. i used to stay up late
talking to him, lips trembling with the anxieties of
most kids. one day he stopped responding.
thirteen year olds shouldn’t believe they’re going to
burn in hell but when i closed my eyes, i only felt
empty, i honestly thought i’d lost my soul just by
being me, i waited for the devil to come and take me
the first time a boy kissed me i threw up and
shook and couldn’t tell my mom because sex was
a sin and i was in the wrong. the first time i kissed a
girl, i bit down on her lip and was baptized in her blood
i told myself any god that accidentally makes his children
flawed - i said, fuck that, i’m out, that’s not my god
i am sad that it has taken me so long to realize it’s
not the lord i hate but instead my religion, the belief
in the word of giving, of love, of an open heart and mercy
and absolute forgiveness - i hear slogans of hate and
wonder if they even have looked in the new testament
i mean my lord said “let he who is without sin cast the first
stone” and these words to me are more important than
one out-of-context passage from leviticus, that “love they
neighbor” and “do good unto others” are
the building blocks of a church i would love - that my god
is the one i found in the bible, not one that they’re hiding
behind in order to justify their hatred
i’m sad because i’m catholic and that means to me that i’m
less likely to take and more likely to give, not that i would
punish you for any imagined sin. i think those who say
that others will burn are putting themselves in the throne
of the lord, that they are taking the right of holy judgement
from the angels and saints and instead putting them into
human’s hands, i think that when my father once spat “oh,
so you’d let women work in the church, you’d let them
be priests and bishops?” i looked at him and replied, “i think
that’s a great idea,” because our religion has held onto the
exact wrong traditions, we’re shoving down the idea that
jesus means seclusion and hatred
instead of reminding ourselves
that he was followed by more than white sinless preachers, that
his congregation was made of prostitutes and runaways and
thieves, that it was his open heart that made them holy, that
he would have hated the idea of making money,
that he would have wanted to donate the whole
of vatican city, that his name isn’t for use in law offices because it was unquestioned law
that got him killed, i mean - my god? the one i have faith in?
he saw the universe was empty and put love in it.
hatred is a corrupt thing. hatred is an invention of man
trying to be king. the truth is, i respect other people
and how they see the universe and it still hurts every time
someone makes a comment about how ridiculous catholics
are. i can’t argue. i know where they’re coming from. it’s
like one half of us are trying to keep this religion afloat
and are just doing our best to be kind and be good and the
other half are dragging our name through the mud, looking
at any kind of difference and saying they see a diversion from god.
the thing is, i respect marriages from other religions as
legitimate and so do many other people but the moment
someone says “oh what about gay people getting hitched”
all i hear is “well the bible says.” Marriage is not a wholly
catholic act. there are people finding each other and falling in love despite everything that’s thrown at them. what do you get out of stripping the name of marriage from them?
evolution states that all species must reproduce and change
in order to stay alive in the modern day. when you close the
doors to a church, you clog the arteries to your religion.
this is not my god. he would have been accepting.
see, god was all about salvation, not about
damnation. he would be embarrassed so many
of his church spend more time hurting lives
than trying to help them.
my god is the joy in the universe. my god is the
impossibility of our existence. my god is my choice
and i wouldn’t push him on anyone. what i believe
should have no impact on how safe you feel, just
as much as those boys who have cornered me to ask
how someone so smart could still believe in god
should have never opened their mouths -
everyone’s got it mixed up. it’s religion that’s
the choice and everything else is god’s making.
if you believe in a perfect god, you’ll believe that
mistakes can’t happen. see every human as a divine
image. accept them as your kindred.
god’s word should not be represented as a
selection. it’s the whole bible or none of it. the second
commandment is to not take the lord’s name in vain.
stop making him a stamp on your stupid crusades.
let his work continue without intrusion. your hatred
is corruption, and only love the solution.